Monday, September 15, 2008
As my entrance to prison approaches (less than 12 hrs more), i feel a mixture of fear, sadness, anger and hatred welling inside of me.
Fear. Of not knowing what to expect in there. Of not knowing what kind of hellish torture im gonna go true and whther im gonna make it alive out of them.
Sadness. At the thought of giving up 2 years of my life to do something which will not be beneficial to me in any way whatsoever. At the thought of...giving up my comfortable lifestyle and succumb to the evils of NS.
Anger. At the thought of having me, the great one, be treated like a dog in there. At the thought of being mentally, emotionally and physically abused to the extreme all under the name of "Serving the nation".
Hatred. At the Gahment for coming up with this unpopular, ridiculous scheme and maintaining it for over 20 yrs.
Now i would like to keep my farewell short and simple so..
See you in two weeks!
Or more like...see you in two years! :(
Before i go, if u may notice, ive changed the song for this blog. A fitting song before i enlist.
"if only i dont BEND and BREAK (in Tekong),
i'll meet u on the other side (meaning Singapore)
i'll meet u in the light (outside of moi bunk)
if only i dont SUFFOCATE (from all the tortures)
ill meet u in the morning when you wake.. (back at home)"
Fear. Of not knowing what to expect in there. Of not knowing what kind of hellish torture im gonna go true and whther im gonna make it alive out of them.
Sadness. At the thought of giving up 2 years of my life to do something which will not be beneficial to me in any way whatsoever. At the thought of...giving up my comfortable lifestyle and succumb to the evils of NS.
Anger. At the thought of having me, the great one, be treated like a dog in there. At the thought of being mentally, emotionally and physically abused to the extreme all under the name of "Serving the nation".
Hatred. At the Gahment for coming up with this unpopular, ridiculous scheme and maintaining it for over 20 yrs.
Now i would like to keep my farewell short and simple so..
See you in two weeks!
Or more like...see you in two years! :(
Before i go, if u may notice, ive changed the song for this blog. A fitting song before i enlist.
"if only i dont BEND and BREAK (in Tekong),
i'll meet u on the other side (meaning Singapore)
i'll meet u in the light (outside of moi bunk)
if only i dont SUFFOCATE (from all the tortures)
ill meet u in the morning when you wake.. (back at home)"
Now im gonna head to bed early today. Since ill be enlisting at 10 AM tmr. So yeah..wish me luck. Cos i'll need it.
LOADS OF IT. :(
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